Eating without the fog
Hunger returns slowly, and often disguised as anxiety.
Opioids slow the entire digestive tract. They suppress hunger signals, blunt taste, and chronically constipate most long-term users. Many of us spent years eating once a day, eating sugar to feel anything at all, or eating to push down a feeling we could not name. Coming off, the relationship with food becomes one of the first relationships you have to rebuild.
In the first thirty to ninety days, hunger often returns as anxiety. A jittery, hollow feeling in the stomach that you used to interpret as 'I need something' — and 'something' usually meant a pill. That same feeling now usually means 'I need a meal, three hours ago.' Eat first. Then assess.
Build a floor under your eating before you try to perfect it. Three small meals at fixed times beats one beautiful meal at random. Protein in the morning matters more than almost anything else you will eat that day — it stabilizes blood sugar, which stabilizes mood, which stabilizes craving response.
Sugar will spike hard in early recovery because it is the fastest legal dopamine available. Let it. Now is not the moment to also quit sugar. Pick the one fight that is in front of you. The sugar can come down at month six, not month one.
Hydration is the silent giant. Many of us in long-term opioid use are mildly dehydrated for years. The first week of consistent water intake will improve sleep, skin, headaches, and mood more than most people expect. Aim for a glass of water before coffee in the morning. Build from there.
If you have a history of disordered eating alongside the addiction, treat the two as related, not separate. They share the same root: a body that learned to ask less of the world because asking felt unsafe.
Today's practice
Set three eating times today and write them on paper. Eat at each one even if you are not hungry.
Reflection
- — When in my day do I confuse hunger with craving?
- — What food did I love before the pills, and could I have it this week?